turning point

This time, i am gonna write something that always bothered my mind and soul. which i believe, this is true. which i feel this is right.

I believe in every human's life there is turning point. which this is so vary between every individual. For example, one human loss her wife when they were really young and just got married and other people has been bankrupt and loss the things he had. God make everything for a reasons, YES, and this might be for every His creatures to learn and understand what HE want us to learn and what HE want us to become.
So, I believe HE has different plans for every HIS human. My question is What is my turning point?
or I will become HIS plan for other people's turning point? like my friend who died at age 26 while pregnant?

What i mean by this turning point is something that you have never expected or even think that could happen to your life. Its beyond your control but it have big impact on your life and change your life and even your self. It might be tragic to your life, may it come early or later. or might be never come to your life.

Do i ready if GOD use me to become part of his plan to change people?

If i could chose, i better be one who learn rather than be the one who make peoples learn.
But, once again, i know its not something that i can choose and i will learn to lower my ego so i could happily accept if i will be the one who make peoples learn.

Funny to say, especially for those who disagree with me. But i honestly said, death is not something to scare about. If i die, then be it. I just hope i am not died in vain. I hope peoples surround me will learn a lot by my dying. peoples will think of me, the goods that i left in this world. It was the same feeling as i heard people died. I don't even think it is something need to cry or sadden. Simply said, i believe, death is better than living. Death means you are free from suffering. Death is the world you never known. But it is so obvious, it means you are free from fear, worry, depress and unhappiness. I know you might thing death just a easy way out for coward people. Its up to every individual. But, i just said, death is not something do be scared or crying. If it happens, just happens. i just hope i am not in pain when i die and not in vain.